下午跟吉兒去散步
一路從宿舍經Haggerston Park走到Broadway market再沿著河岸走回家
下午自己搬ㄧ大箱東西到新家
然後晚上胃痛 伴隨着心痛
希望只有胃痛就好
希望我不是這麼衣食無缺
於是我就不會這麼強說愁
感到孤單到可以窒息
6/april 從小窗戶看出去天很藍
一早起來發現
就算還沒找到那個人
在那之前的時間應該是完全屬於我的
而不是憂鬱的
不是虛無的
是 屬 於 我 的
就算永遠都找不到
which有這個可能
反正也許心中有個洞只是個人生狀態很正常
I didn't fell lost on my first trip to Paris
I did fell lost on my trip to Holland , Thanks to that woman.
I didn't fell lost on my second trip to Paris well maybe just a tiny bit.
I didn't fell lost on my trip to Berlin, did I?
every piece of my life should only belongs to me.
Vagueness or not.
7/April
一早的房租驚魂
我又不出所料的狂亂了一天
結果被大不信任牌的朋友
釋出了善意
讓自己很害羞
我居然在自導自演的戲碼上
跳了半天
總之新擁抱的人生觀世界上是好人多過壞人的
and
Happythankyoumorepleasework so far
我情願跌跌撞撞滿身是傷
也絕不喪失勇氣
24/april 下雨又難得晴天 去班上同學的生日宴 一位英國人說他大概上輩子來自中國或印尼some where 因為他特喜歡水墨畫 還交過放在中國裝潢上很美的中國男友 我有覺得自己上輩子是英國人嗎 鐵定不是 我回說我可能事美國人 我其實找學校時事想去紐約 但展轉來到倫敦了 他說 紐約都是phycho 29/April The high light of the year. I kissed a boy the first time. A boy kissed me on the sofa. Outside is the dawn I can feel his breath went up and down. very peacefully like the tide i saw in north taiwan sea coast, mine, so panic and no rhythm what so ever. Because i don't want to wake him up. I not even sure if he was asleep. He lifted me up. and we kissed again. |
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